I have no words today. They sleep inside me and do not want to come out. It's okay though, because the sun is shining and winter is slowly departing. I heard birds singing this morning, and possibly the sound of geese coming back for Spring. It might be a few more weeks before I see flowers, but there is change in the air, and I feel like I am waking up from a very long dream. There are things to be done, to be seen, and to be loved...~
How refreshing of a guarantee is it to be able to say, “I have fallen and yet I will rise”. And you don’t just rise, you fucking ascend. You spend so much time with yourself and your feelings that you begin to discover what makes you tick. What inspires you and keeps you hopeful. And you find strength in your weaknesses. You fall in love with who you are and what you have to offer and your eyes begin to open after being shut for way to long...~
The entire beauty of life in one word: fight. You fight because you understand that you cannot, will not, and should not ever lose yourself entirely to the cards life hands you. You fight because you recognize that there is much more out there than some boy who didn’t love you back or some girl who cared much less than she ever let you believe. There is more. And so you, the flower once crushed by the changing of season, work towards the arrival of spring…~
So today, I resign to being nothing more than who I am; I resign to "be a proliferator of good vibes." I have the magic. Perhaps even more than others. I have good friends, I am in the best shape of my life both physically (not quite yet) and spiritually and I have an enduring family that loves me. I will find a special person again who is wonderful, not only handsome but a true gentleman. His spirit will be warm and masculine. His mind sharp and his arms loving and secure. I am creative. I am a good guy. I have arms and legs and a heart that work. And, the most important, I am blessed every day.
magic and dreams and good madness. reading of some fine books and kissing someone who thinks you're wonderful, don't forget to make some art - write, draw, grow or build or sing or live. surprise yourself...~
It feels cliché writing about hope and spring. But I can’t help it. Flowering trees make me swoon. My heart leaps on my commute when I catch–out of the corner of my eye–a small stand of blossoming and leafing trees otherwise gray with winterized brush. I cheer with joy...~
Though earth and moon were gone. And suns and universes ceased to be. And though we're left alone. Every existence would exist in thee...~
So today is my birthday...~
A lot has changed in my life over the past few months. I broke up with my guy and also moved to a new place. Moving has allowed me to have a fresh start. I’m single now and around brand new surroundings, and although the break up was really crappy, I’ve come to terms with it and am moving on.
Since it’s my birthday, I really want this new year to be great.
I celebrated my birthday this past weekend with my fab family & friends and had a blast! Good food and good company make me happy =)
I’m lucky to have such supportive and caring people in my life.
Also, thank you to all my friends for your unconditional support. You have made the past year a lot more bearable and easier for me.
I hope turning a year older will make me wiser.
Here’s to an amazing, life changing year!
I’m only looking ahead, there’s no more turning back…~
